i feel like crying. i feel so worthless. just leave me alone in that small dark corner. i guess nobody would bother still. i tried but my results are still like shit. okay, i tried. i really did. but i still can't catch up with the rest. even if they didn't study much. i feel so stupid. i don't want to don't be in the top 40. i want to be good. i want to strive. but i can't. it's just too tiring. i cannot cope with it. i'm not some superwoman who can do everything like you guys did. it just seems so easy for you okay. but who would know that i tried? who. you will just think that it's a miracle if i tried. even when i did my best. you would say that the paper is easy when i got high marks. you just don't know me. not even my closest friends and family. take a look on the inside la. but i guess you'll never do that. yes, i'm used to it alr. but somehow i'm still carry that glimpse of hope. hoping that some miracle would happen. i need someone. just someone. to be there for me when i need it. but.. forget it lah.
some april fools it has been huh.